SHUT UP! and listen.

I've been talking so loud and so much, that I can't hear what God is speaking to me.

However, I've been having these dreams, and I believe God may be telling me something important.... he has definitely caught my attention.

Fishy.

Literally.

I've been having dreams that I've been filling my fish tank with really pretty fish of all different sorts.

If I have this dream again, then I'll really be suspicious of God's possible messages to me about fish.

I need to stop talking. I find that the more I talk about my problems, and the more opinions and thoughts I get from different people, the more I get confused on what I need to be hearing, who I should be listening to, and what the answers are.

And only God knows... so why am I crowding my mind with everyone else's 2 cents?

(I've always known, He's in my heart, I'm not alone)

(Speak to me, tell me all the things I need to know, I want to hear you now. Make your wisdom clear, the words I hold so dear. Bring light into my dark.)

I decided to buy the NIV in mp3 style so I can listen to God's word while I follow along in my Bible. It's actually super neat... they use different voices for each character, which makes it easier to follow along and get a hold on the stories. I'd like to finish by the summer time...

... funny, I remember saying that last year when I tried this. I started around the same time, and my goal was to finish by the summer. Hmm... I'm determined to actually do it this time.

I need to do it. I need to hear God's word. I need to be connected more securely with my Jesus.

(Shaken like a leaf. Afraid to life my eyes. Afraid of all Your glory. Ashamed of all my pride. Then you call me in. To your holy place. I fall down. Down on my face. And I beckon you for mercy. I beckon you to forget everything that I've ever done. And I, I... I tremble. And I, I... I tremble. I am just a man, showered in your grace. You're the holy God. Your glory fills this place. And I beckon you for mercy. And I beckon you to forget everything that I've ever done. And I, I... I tremble. And I, I... I tremble.)

I'm 20 now. Weird eh? Still not sure how I feel about that. I suppose I shouldn't think about it as much as I have been, but for some reason it's a big thing for me. I have a bunch of dreams though, and being 20 makes them seem closer to reality. For instance, being 20, starting my own business seems like a breeze... I'm old enough to handle it. I'm really excited about it too. Having my own company... my own photo studio :D How cool eh? Snapbird Photography. It's super sweet.

OoOOo I got a new bass guitar. Now I'm really super excited to get really good at playing it... you know, I have to be as rad as my bass right? Haha. I named him Perry... he's periwinkle! He's perfect :)

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