Hope

hope: /hoʊp/ [hohp] – noun: to believe, desire, or trust

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

There Is None Like You

My heart is weak and my mind feeling like giving up. There has been a break-up, a disconnect, a distance... a lack of inspiration and a whirlwind of confusion.

I forgot to look up... instead, I've been looking around.
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[My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest. Exodus 33:14]

‎[I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness. Jeremiah 31:3]

‎[My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. 2 Corinthians 12:9]

‎[I have set the Lord always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Psalm 16:8]
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This concept of giving it all... of letting go and being at peace with the thought of God, this seemingly invisible creator, this master of life... leading me blindly.... it's a concept I haven't been able to fully grasp yet. I want to. I know I need to. And I'm trying.

God IS Love.
And Love is what I crave.

Craving God is a good feeling... a heart wrenching, life focusing, mind opening, faith pushing feeling that, even though is good, can be painful and scary.

But it's real.
And God IS real.

God is Love.
And Love is real.
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And so I begin, as I begin again and again everyday.... my journey to knowing You more, to knowing my Lord... my Saviour... more and more.

More and more.
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Thursday, January 29, 2009

The Hardest Part

Wow. I never really knew pain until I experienced these past couple weeks. I never realized how deep my love ran for Him... James. And he didn't really break my heart, as much as he took it straight out of my chest and put it somewhere in his. 

But it always did belong to him, so I guess it only makes sense. 

When they say time heals all wounds, are they talking days, months, years? Do I have to fall out of love before the pain subsides? Do I have to find some sort of distraction in the shape of a male to cover up all the memories that I love so much? 

Holding hands in the forest... blowing kisses before saying goodnight... every night...

Will the sun always shine for him in my eyes? Will the moon always hover as if it's somehow connecting us no matter how far apart we are? 

Will every beautiful thing God created always remind me of his smile.... the smile that used to be only mine?

[You belong with me, not swallowed in the sea]

I promised to love you forever, and I think I can still do it. 

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God is love. 

His Plan For Me

  • Get In To the Word and Deep In Prayer
  • Prayer Journal - To see God's amazing power through Prayer
  • Committment Journal - Record my struggles and successes to visually see progress over time
  • Personal Goals - Start doing more of the things that make me happy and save some "me" time (art, writing, reading, etc.)
  • Work - Pleasing to God, to be happy in what I do and offer my abilities whenever I can
  • Tithing and Saving - Respecting my money and using it appropriately
  • Education - Study God's word and begin thinking more about my future
  • Touch Cleansing - Relationships (family, friends, dating, God, etc.)
  • Taste Cleansing - What I eat and put into my body (food, drink, nutrition, health, etc.)
  • Smell Cleansing - Waking up and smelling the roses, appreciating small things
  • Sound Cleansing - What I listen to and hear (music, language, people, messages, truths, etc.)
  • Visual Cleansing - What I watch and see (movies, television, magazines and media, pictures, people, etc)

God's Amazing Power

In Christ Alone

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
'Till on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Brought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
'Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand