God creates us all good looking in our own way. But what does that mean exactly? What way am I good looking? What way am I good looking that the other, better looking girl isn't? Or should I say it this way... what makes her better looking?
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I try not to let this bother me. But some things just do, you know?---
I've decided to start writing again. A story. In the form of a movie. A script. And I'm going to finish it this time, and maybe someday, go back to my original dream of being a filmographer, and make it.
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There's so many things that I want to do. Why can't I do them all? I'm going to.
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I think I lost a bunch of myself on the truck. Not just stuff, you know, but identity and self knowledge. I feel like my brain was wiped out with the accident. Amnesia? I've been listening to my hippie tunes, Mamas and Papas, Velvet Underground, Jimi.... and I started to remember how I enjoy that music and the times. I've had my incense burning and I've remembered that I like the smell of hemp and grass and art. It makes me sound silly, but it's true. Where have I been? Why don't I write, draw, go picture walking, make things.... I've been too busy... trying to figure out what it is that I like to do, that I haven't had time to... do it??? I don't know. I make no sense. I need to think about it more.
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Basically..... there's more to me then you know.---
Do you want to take my picture.... cuz I won't remember....
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The List
-Honesty (He has to tell me how it is, straight up - no games)
-Jesus lover (Be as in love with Jesus as I am... be willing to let God be the most important part of our relationship)
-Integrity (Very important to me. The most important thing my father taught me)
-Funny (I want to be able to still laugh even when the times are rocky)
-Spontaneous and Adventurous (Want every moment to count)
-Abstinence (I'm not willing to compromise with this one (or any for that matter... I don't care what anyone says)...)
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Fil is coming on Friday... I can't wait :)
Andrew is coming on Sunday... I can't wait :)
Andrew is coming on Sunday... I can't wait :)
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Ahh... my emotions suck man. I hate how I don't understand them.
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I'm going out for coffee avec mon pére. Maybe he will enlighten me on my feelings towards... everything. Ugh. I just wish Fil and Andrew were here now! And Alex and Michael. And Mudd.
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