Reverent Worship

My kitten has chicken legs.

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Ten days until I can see my summer family again.
I'm very excited. I love them and I've missed them so much.

I'm also very excited for our New York trip.

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Church this morning was really awesome. I wasn't feeling the greatest and I was pretty spacey during most of it, but there were two moments when I felt totally alive and totally in the presence of God.

The first was when I was playing bass... I haven't done it in almost three months and I forgot the passion I guess. Being able to praise God through the movement of my fingers and the feel of the music, the words that bring reverent worship to the One deserving of it.... it was a fantastic feeling.

The other was after Allison spoke her message. We sang a few songs that really expressed my gratitude towards Jesus.

Lord you are...
More precious then silver,
More costly then gold,
More beautiful then diamonds.
Nothing I desire, compares to you.

This one really was a testimony for me. All the things in the world that I cherish, none of them are anywhere near as important and magnificent as my Jesus. From material things to the different ways in which I love people... God is the only one that can fulfill me in every way.

I dunno, He's just so awesome and cool like that.

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Anyway... I have the most ginormous headache of all.

And the temperature is killing me... it is so unbelievably humid. I want it to rain.

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The 'Twilight' book is taking over my time. I'm so addicted to it, I can't put it down. I'm half way through it and with every page I turn I get a little upset because that's one page closer to the end.

Good thing there are 4 books in the series.

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My house almost burnt down last night at dinner. It's a funny story actually... I remembered it in church this morning and started laughing to myself.

My mom made fajita things and we were sitting around the table, just having a lovely dinner. Suddenly, mom jumped up and ran over to the oven... when she opened it I could see the flames, and they were getting bigger. Just as she opened the oven, my dad jumped up from his seat, literally threw Kerrie across the room so he could get there faster, yelled at someone to open the door so we all ran to different doors in the house. He was talking to me though, I was near the sliding door that leads to the backyard... I yelled "it's open!!" thinking he just wanted the glass part open to let the smoke out. I didn't know he was planning on bringing the flaming fajita outside, so he got made when I didn't open the screen too haha. Oh man, it was hilarious. I had to push Logan out of the way so I could get the door open and haha awe... good times.

We love fire.

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I was inspired to rearrange my bedroom yesterday... now it's somehow twice as big and way more tidy. I love it though, it's so cozy.

Some might say it's cluttered, but it's not really. I really like looking at things, and so I display everything from my jewelry to my scarves (using them as curtains, it's kinda cool). I also have a lot of photos - obviously - but not nearly enough paintings.

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I know you really were dying to know all that.

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Band practice tomorrow! I should go practice now...

Grande White Hot Chocolate w/ 1 Pump Raspberry (I love my Raspberry)

When you love someone sometimes you've got to give them away.

For the betterment of their heart.

And yours.

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I had a lovely tea date with Chantal this evening :) Nice to chat with a great friend.

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Logan and I are going to watch the whole sixth season of 24 this weekend. It's so good so far! Really gory though, lots of attention to pain :S Logan and I squirm a lot.

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I went into the dark room and realized I could see my feet... 

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The Twilight book IS good so far :( I was hoping to be different and totally dislike it, but no such luck. I thought about it all day at school haha. There's one character that is soo intriguing and I keep on reading because I want to get to know him better. I kind of wish I would meet someone like him. Handsome and mysterious. 

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I'm actually going to go read it now.

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Tomorrow I am going to make a list of a bunch of things I want to accomplish by this time next September (who says New Year's Resolutions have to start on the first of January? Why not half way through September?)

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Sometimes I wonder why I blog... it's basically just me talking to myself virtually. I doubt people even read it on a regular basis, if ever.

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Guess it just makes me feel a little less lonely at times :)

Once. And Again Some Day?

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now

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I had a great day.
Classes went quickly, and still fairly simple.
I got eighty percent on my very first test of the year... that's pretty good, no?
After class I met up with Steve Vincent and we went for lunch at a hockey restaurant (he likes hockey haha) and I had a blast! We went through the massive list of all the people we have in common and talked about all the cool things about being a fireman (my personal favourite would be the calender.... haha), so that was cool.

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I think it's time for a mind sweep...
You know when you delete a bunch of stuff off your computer, but then you have to go in and do a final delete in the trash can? Well, I've deleted a lot of things from my life and made some hard decisions, but now I need to do the final "let go"... you know? It's so hard. I hold onto things for a really long time (too long... I'm still somehow holding onto things that happened in tenth grade).

People are important to me... very important to me.

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So it seems as though I am going to New York alone.... the rest of my team haven't sent in their applications yet.

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Tomorrow I get my first photo assignment!

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That's it... tomorrow I'm handing out twenty applications for work. No more of this waiting around for the good places... I need money!

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Song of Songs 8:4
I need to remember this one.
Maybe I'll tattoo it on my forearm...

Raindrops and Laptops

Perhaps I'm too sensitive, or maybe it just meant more to me.

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It's 9:18 and I'm still in bed... I love my schedule.
No class until 1pm.... and then it's Post Production.... I love my schedule.

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Last night was the first practice for YP band :) I had so much fun! Kerrie and I rocked the 2nd Cornets section (yea, I don't get my own section yet... but just wait...). I was very surprised with how well I did actually. My sound wasn't too bad, and other then having to write the letters under the notes, I followed along and nailed a lot of it.

I think once you learn something, you never forget it... it just hides somewhere in your big head.

Like swimming maybe?

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Tonight is a surprise party for Bryan! He is leaving for 5 months to Spain in a couple of weeks, so that is sad and exciting all at once. It's being held at the Granger residence.... it's been awhile since I've been there. Used to go there a couple times a week. Haha... at least I won't have to clean it :P

<3

Speaking of Grangers.... I came back from the summer and Joel suddenly is bigger then me! I have to look up to him now. Guess the roles have reversed.... though I still hope he looks up to me. He is going to be as tall as James soon.

James hasn't changed a bit.

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But it's only been 2.5 months.

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I've been trying to pass the honours of Bass player over to Steve V. but he is trying to be polite and not take away my spot in the band.... well actually haha....

Maybe we can rotate... create some sort of organizational chart that shows Steve playing 4 times as much as me :D

I really just need to work as much as I can. I could probably do the Worship band thing if I didn't have to go to practices, but that's not fair to the band. If I don't have to work on Tuesday nights, then I'll do it.

I love Perry... I've hardly even talked (or played) with Perry since I've been home. Hope he's not too upset with me, or out of tune.

Maybe I could play my new diddy... "Home home on the Stage, I mean range..."

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In my camera/lighting class yesterday we got our 4x5 cameras.... six hundred pounds of thousands of dollars worth of equipment. Not a stressful class at all...

But it was so fun! It took Carter 3 hours to teach us how to use it and put it together. It's got the accordion body, you know? And the blanket that goes over your head and the shutter release cable. It's fantastic. I just hope I never have to take it on the bus....

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Awe my baby had such a rough morning today! Logan couldn't find money for her music class and then she was running late because Kerrie was going to write her a note, but then she couldn't find her agenda and ugh... my heart broke for the poor girl. She left in tears, running desperately to catch the bus.

For that reason, I wish I had a job and a car.

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Oooo I need to get on that... I really want to get my license soon. Add it to my list of 'have dones'

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If anyone wants family photos done in the fall... let me know!
Or the winter actually... I love LOVE winter photography...

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It annoys me when the phone rings when you're waiting for a job to call... and it's not them...

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I'm off!
Have a great day :)

Coconut Cream Pie

Job hunting is a drag.

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So I joined the YP Band. I'm going to be in the CSB in no time.
Look out Flugal Hornists...

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I so badly don't want to work at Starbucks... but why does it seem that they're the only ones hiring?

I love my Grande Green Tea Lattes w/ 2 pumps raspberry and negative on the melon, but to have to make everyone's crazy creations... it's not my type of gig.

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How about Chapters though?

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I love the Ritz commercial. The cute little boy makes a trail with his Ritz crackers leading to the front door of the cute little blonde he likes. She opens the door and her jaw drops... it's adorable!

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I have my first studio class tomorrow! I cannot wait!

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I haven't been sleeping for so many nights in a row! Night time is when all my thoughts come out.... all the thoughts that I can distract myself from during the day. I'm hoping that reading my business book when I get into bed will put me to sleep haha

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My breathing is getting worse everyday... and I don't even have a blanket over my head.

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Zig-zag wallaby.

Scruffy With a Ball of Red Yarn

You meet the most unique people at art school.

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Tonight I'm going to young adults group... kind of like youth group, but less drama. Can't wait to meet new people :)

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Last night I went to see Downhere play at the MET. It was pretty great. I chatted it up with Glen Lavender after the show and it was cool because he remembered my family from Kitchener. He is a great bass player and his band has great stage presence. So that was a good night :)

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I've had the acrylic craving for awhile now and I can't wait to whip out my paintbrushes when I get home tonight! Set up the ol easel and see what happens. I have so many ideas and luckily I have lots of canvas.

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My teacher actually does sound a little like Steve Carell. It's distracting.

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A new and improved (and actually including content) www.snapbird.ca is coming your way soon! Keep your eyes peeled for my online portfolio :) Also, SnapBird Photography will be up and running by the end of the month.

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Nikon D3 is my new dream. 

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I can't wait... I have to start painting now!

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I'll be back later...

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9:44 p.m

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I'm back :D And I had a really great night! I met some really cool people at the young adults gathering (it was a mighty gathering). There were nine of us all together and they were all really awesome. A couple go to my school, so that was neat. We ate steak and peaches & ice cream, played Trivial Pursuit and Outburst, and jumped on the trampoline! It was fantastic! I can't wait to hang out with them again soon :) And the best part, some of them are coming to Woodroffe... wooohooo! Friends at church! :D

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Anyway, I have to go read my book now... I was hoping to paint, but I realized I have 30 pages of 'Interplay: The Process of Interpersonal Communication' - boring! What does that have to do with being a photographer? Haha actually, it has a lot to do with it, but still... that really puts me to sleep. 

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Church carnival tomorrow! Should be a good time! Haha...

Two Shots of Decaf Espresso

In my head!
I'd say it's irritating, but I like it so much.

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So I just had the "sooo... anyone knew and special in your life?" talk with the last "special" person I had in my life. He's got a new special person and that is fantastic, I'm actually really glad to hear it. I didn't have as exciting news to tell him unfortunately. But I've decided that being single is good for me right now. I need to focus on school and doing really well so I can do what I want with my life (Ryerson possibly?)... so I'm closing my eyes to the male species! Haha... well, I'm going to try anyway... it's hard not to smile when a sruffy guy walks by. I've seen some of what's out there anyway, and there is no way I'm settling for less...

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He'd have to be pretty great.

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I was talking to this guy in my class called Alex and realized I know nothing about photography haha... at least compared to Alex! He totally diagnosed this really seemingly simple photo and it sounded like he was speak a different language. He was talking about techniques I have never heard of. He knew so much and he said he will show me some sweet dark room stuff. He's really crazy and has bad language, but he sounds like he's super talented... I guess we'll see...

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Apparently the teacher I have tomorrow sounds like Steve Carell... I'm supposed to close my eyes and listen.

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I lost my Bible :( My heart is broken! It made it through the whole summer and somewhere on the last stretch it's disappeared. I really hope it's hiding somewhere in this house... it's my favourite.

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I get Photoshop CS3 in my course :)

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I have no final exams in my course :)

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Chocolate Beads

First day of school was a breeze. Bowie talked at us for an hour, then we played two truths and a lie.... lemme tell ya, I was pro at that game...

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I made a friend, and I'd be cool with her being the only friend I make all year, because she's that nice. She's quiet and she has hair the colour of a full moon... bright burnt orange... all natural. Her name is Amelia and she laughs a lot.

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I'm home alone and somewhat feeling on the downside. I get lonely and daydream, not just about the summer, but before the summer too. And not just right before the summer, but this whole year. And before that too, in Edmonton. How did I get from there... the quiet rebellious Whyte Ave walker... to here... sitting on my bed, with my kittens, my fish and my bamboo sticks... daydreaming about flower petals and how I could have shot that frame better. I just wish I had a friend that I could pull out from under my bed whenever I want company.

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I wish I was Bret and I had a Jemaine. Will you be my Jemaine? Or would you rather be Bret?

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I'm excited to meet a New Yorker. Interested to know what their view on a Maple tree is... how many Maple trees do you think they have in New York? Now many trees do you think they have in New York?

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Did you know that by the time you reach the age of 71, if you are an average person, you will have spent roughly 10 full years infront of the television?

And did you know that every single day, your eyes are exposed to over 3000 advertisements! That's 3000 different views from other people, people who only care about making a dollar, telling you what you have to look like, what you have to wear, what you have to have. Something about that seems ill to me. What's wrong with second hand clothing? If it was good enough for the last person, it's good enough for me.

Same thing goes with make-up... it's just an excuse to look like someone else, look like something "better". Well who are you trying to impress? I rather look like the ugly duckling and have a really great guy fall in love with me for who I am, then have a really great guy fall in love with who he thinks I am... are you going to wake up every morning with make-up on your face? Are you going to be like Tobias and be a never-nude with your fake skin you paint on your face?! Make-up is not an art!

Sorry.

All I'm trying to get at is how unreal this world is becoming. We can't be real with others if we can't be real with ourselves. We can't be real with God if we can't be real with ourselves....

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I'm going to make some tea... with lots and lots of honey.

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Mon coeur c'est casse parce que tu n'pas ici avec moi maintenant. 

Bamboo Tango

I just had one of my mom's chocolate chip banana muffins... I missed them this summer.

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So my sister's 'boyfriend' came over for dinner... he's a nice guy so I can't really hold that against him. He's smart and has a good career, so I can't hold that against him. He's an active Christian AND Salvationist, so I can't hold that against him. And he's willing to drive the 5 hour drive just to get here to spend a few hours with her, so that is pretty awesome and I can't hold that against him. So basically, other then the age, the guy is great. Is the age a big enough deal to hold it against him? I really don't know :S

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I wish Colin and Justin would heist my home.

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Imagine an inverted world. Imagine suddenly all the colours in the whole world inverted, and their opposites took over. I wonder if that would be pretty or not. It would turn daytime into night and the oceans would turn orange. My eyes would be orange, if you had green eyes, they'd be red, if you had brown eyes... mmm. The trees would have red leaves and the clouds would be black! I think it would seem like a miserable place to live. The sun would be purple! It would be so trippy haha. Neato.

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Extreme Home Makeover has been on all day. It's such a ridiculous show. They build extravagant homes in shabby neighborhoods and for families that don't need as much space as they get. I just saw one with a mom and two sons and the house was HUGE! Like bigger then the Parliament buildings. Wouldn't people look at you differently? And wouldn't you suddenly start worrying about whether or not people are your friends for who you are or for your sudden wealth and popularity? I dunno, maybe I'm way off. I just think that building a mansion for a family that has a lot of medical concerns isn't the best use of money. 

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I love spaghetti! 

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Smells, sounds and certain colours or the way the sun shines, remind me of things that twist my heart a little. Like, the best memories are sparked by those things. A song just came on that I listened to once this summer and it was a really great moment that I somewhat forgot about. I won't tell you the song or the moment, but it was a really awesome moment that I'd love to have back. Mix that song with the way the moon shines or the way a tree is silhouetted by the setting sun and the memory is perfect, mixing a few of the best times together.

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You are my sweetest downfall.